Sinners and Saints

Six months and five days after my father's death, I have had a day where I have not felt like the world is closing in on me.  The past six months have been a crisis of faith for me.  I have been so close to just letting go of what I believe to be true.  So much centers around watching crises unfold around me...watching Christian people behave badly.  Why is it that we run from the world....from those who are supposed to behave badly because it's their nature...yet we cannot seem to do right ourselves?